Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Where am I heading :-/

Things are soooooo different when we view it from another person's eyes. Today we had a loooong discussion about work, team etc. I was doing only the listening part of it and my friend was speaking. But it was different.. For me work is just about me. The satisfaction it gives me. How much I learn everyday..End of the day.. am I enjoying doing what Im doing...Thatz all that really matters. Maybe itz becoz Im a fresher rite now and I dont expect much. But itz different with my more experienced friends. For them, it seems to be a constant struggle. A constant struggle to prove a point, a constant struggle not to be overridden by others, a constant struggle to be recognized. They seem to look at everybody suspiciously.. Trust seems to be a forgotten term ! A friend recently told me..I know it Sreeshu.. Ive trusted and been stamped and crushed. With experience comes knowledge, position etc but it also seems to bring along unwanted guests like bitterness.... I came back and was just going through old documents. I used to maintain a document called "Lessons Learnt" initially when i had just joined as an intern.. There i had written.."Me and Aishoo saw the sunset from the pantry..it was soooo beautiful...But the sad part is nobody else seemed to notice it... I dunno if it is because they are so absorbed with work or if they has seen it so many times, it did'nt enthrall them anymore. Whatever happens I should'nt forget to enjoy such simple pleasures in life." I had written it eight months back. And suddenly Ive realized that Me n Aishoo havent seen the sunset for so many months now. Maybe, as much as I dont want to, I am joining the bandwagon too... as much as I dont want to, im headed in that direction.. Ooooh..it is a scary thought!:-)

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Finally..My First Post:-)

I had thought of blogging long time ago but had given up the idea coz I was too lazy. But recently, I've been hearing so much about blogs.. first a college friend sends an invitation to blog, the very next day my colleague n friends talks about his blogs and the interesting ones he has read and a mention of blog in some article i was reading. It was blogs, blogs and more blogs. So decided to give it a shot. And the setting is right too. Ive come home for the weekend...sitting in my room, in front of my comp, listening to the songs Ive heard a million times, sipping tea made by mummy... as relaxed as i possibly can be. Itz amazing..I love my life at Chennai, Im independent, stay with real cool friends, work with a wonderful team,learn new stuff everyday and do my own thing. Yet I desperately need to come home once a month for 2 days and be at home without worrying or thinking about anything, without any responsibility whatsoever. Thtz why probably a home is a home is a home. :-)