Just a thought...

Where am I heading :-/

Things are soooooo different when we view it from another person's eyes. Today we had a loooong discussion about work, team etc. I was doing only the listening part of it and my friend was speaking. But it was different.. For me work is just about me. The satisfaction it gives me. How much I learn everyday..End of the day.. am I enjoying doing what Im doing...Thatz all that really matters. Maybe itz becoz Im a fresher rite now and I dont expect much. But itz different with my more experienced friends. For them, it seems to be a constant struggle. A constant struggle to prove a point, a constant struggle not to be overridden by others, a constant struggle to be recognized. They seem to look at everybody suspiciously.. Trust seems to be a forgotten term ! A friend recently told me..I know it Sreeshu.. Ive trusted and been stamped and crushed. With experience comes knowledge, position etc but it also seems to bring along unwanted guests like bitterness.... I came back and was just going through old documents. I used to maintain a document called "Lessons Learnt" initially when i had just joined as an intern.. There i had written.."Me and Aishoo saw the sunset from the pantry..it was soooo beautiful...But the sad part is nobody else seemed to notice it... I dunno if it is because they are so absorbed with work or if they has seen it so many times, it did'nt enthrall them anymore. Whatever happens I should'nt forget to enjoy such simple pleasures in life." I had written it eight months back. And suddenly Ive realized that Me n Aishoo havent seen the sunset for so many months now. Maybe, as much as I dont want to, I am joining the bandwagon too... as much as I dont want to, im headed in that direction.. Ooooh..it is a scary thought!:-)

posted by sreeshma @ 2:30 pm